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How Can I Break
06:31
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Back again
Once again
Hand in hand
She demand
All I am
Not the man
reprimand
Cause I cant
Grab her hand
So I stand
As the brand
like a stamp
Total shame
Now I am
kicking sand
Borderland
So I
bring you everything you need
Don't mind
When you want to take the lead
But I
regret every time you leave
when I
Cannot make you talk to me (happy)
These are the days that I give up
These are the ways Ive had enough
These are the times that I dread of
Leaving me asking if I'm enough
Think of a place where we were just happy sitting together hand in hand
Think of a time where we were both nervouse cause we could taste eachother and
Try and remember the day where we were together and no one else could stand
in our way when night came between us and tried to hold us apart we planned
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2. |
Psycho X
03:05
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I wondered so I thought recently
back to when you wouldn’t talk to me
it seemed like maybe we could be
something more than lost history
Every time I thought it was a chance
It turned out you were with another man
Baby, never thought I was a stray
that you would ultimately throw away
Regrets I already had a bunch
Cause I got a second chance to feel your touch
Just like this
We made peace and bliss
So many times
Thought it was a granted wish
Nights I felt her skin
Smothered by her kiss
Paranoid her brain
Salt her condiment
Lack of the instruction
She would choose destruction
Maybe its her way of saying
Her heart has obstructions
Only had deductions that she never changed
So she just reverted to a girl who blames
Me for her lack of happiness when she
Would she’s not happy with
Everything I do
Everything I choose
Every little thing that would hope to prove
My love for her is an uncharted pool
But it turned out to be just a tool
So she could make someone else happy
While she could say it was all on me.
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It's hard to understand how could this have happened
It's hard to accept when I'm just a fraction
Of the whole god damn thing that was part of me
but it turned out I'm not worth your time that's free
Gotta stay strong while others take the easy way
Want to play hard while I'm in the long game
This isn't a mistake
This is how it is
This ain't a revelation
It is violence
I could not imagine this is how it would go
Cut off after all these years acting like you don't
Remember any part of our history
Even though I know where to kiss to make you weak
Remembering your style and the patience that you preached
Remember how you tore my heart apart and the love you breached
What would you like me to tell you today
What would you want me to say for it to go away
How do you want me to tell you how to feel
How do you want me to show you what is real
Put up with the pressure
something's got to give
I cannot accept
this is how we live
Ask me a question and I'll give you an answer
do everything you say but it doesn't matter
what you did to me I cannot accept
You kept our love a secret and then left me for dead.
It wasn't a mistake
It was how it is
I had a revelation
You are violence
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My hands are so warm
when they're in between your legs
My heart has grown cold
when there's no love in it
I had it replaced
by the things that I dread
How can I be a friend that
you disrespect
How can I be the
enemy you respect
All I do is hold you in high regard
All it does is get me closer to just being far
Every break isn't luck or even magic
It's just you deciding when it is that you've had it
Count the days that you give silence to a friend
count the ways that you offered her to lend a hand
ain't no thing not my responsibility
maybe all this silence is the reverse of tranquility
try to balance being dumb and the being that you step
just another name on the list of women in my head
give a minute for another fallen soul
in it to just win it even though she had a role
I cannot convince you cause you're hearts inside a cage
I am not the reason that you want a war to wage.
Two girls that look alike on the feed
Even though they are so different and have different needs
Only thing that they both do that is the same
Is break my heart and cause trauma to my brain
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5. |
It Feels Like I'm Losing
05:06
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It feels like I’m losing
cause there’s something telling me that you are already gone
It feels like I’m helpless
when I’m trapped inside of walls, even though it’s my home
It makes me hell-bent
when you don’t respond and leave me here hanging on
How can I help it
when there’s nothing that can get me into your loving arms?
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6. |
Green Room
03:08
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I couldn't hold back or tell a lie
If there was a chance we wouldn't last the night
Everyday id pray you would see the light
Stay we me some more or even spend the night
Same feeling that once kept me alive
Is the feeling that you create inside
Wish I had the chance just to hold you tight
Give me one more chance to change from wrong to right
I couldn't hold back the love I have for you
Even though you gave me attitude
I couldn't hold back the love that I have for few
Not many can get close like you
Same feeling that you're stealing
turning your back on everything that you had me believing
The healing sends me reeling
against the ropes falling down cause I'm not breathing
Maybe if it was another time or fate
we would get to enjoy all that time on dates
instead of feeling guilty cause I want more than a friend
or feeling jealous when I know that you are out with him
Only thing that I want is to reconciliate
Bring order to the chaos that I constantly create
One thing that I know I cannot live without
hope is better than living a life filled with doubts
I imagine
that you're having the time of your life now that he is around
I'm saddened
that you don't recall when we were together when he called
Idealize
tried to make you my queen but that's too much to ask when she tries to cope
Now I realize
sole reason to love is the only way I've managed to avoid the rope
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Do electric machines dream of you?
After you've dumped their ass for second time and screwed
Your so called best friend again I don't even know cause you never really told the truth
You're the one who mummified and entombed the relationship from the start with rules
Buried for a thousand years is our loved enslaved
by the trauma that you have going inside of your brain
I tried to be everything that you never wanted
I tried to be better but you plotted
You said it wasn't good enough
wasn't just a bluff
Who would've thought I'm out of touch
No use giving up
No more is just left relaxing
when a love that is only taxing
Thought I'd get more for what I am worth
Why can't it be repaired I put forth
You would never dare to tell me how we really faired
How can we shared moments where you never cared
quick to erase instead of playing truth or dare
quick to escape to another man's lair
Maybe in the end it is for the best
Maybe breaking my heart is how it rests
Make sure to lock up after you have left
cause you took a part of me and don't respect
Cause you took ownership with your theft
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You're eyes full of hate, 41
don't think that you'll escape, Hur's son
Keep rowing is your fate, 41
Drowning next to mates for the Roman Sun
How long have you been tamed, 41
The hope that you stay sane, under gun
Do you still habor blame 41?
Masala had you chained and your family done
What would you do if you had another chance
would you tell her everything instead of heading out to dance
with the Devil in the twilight Heaven in the skylight as
another victim is just cucified at sunrise
Can you see the battle coming, 41
Theres something I can't shake, Like you're my son
Already had one lost, 41
Is that why I chose your chains, as the only one
To leave unlocked, Ramming speed at 40 knots
Gallys fill up with the sea and tattered bodies all caught
in the swell and the death 41 will still help
one handed slaves entrapped in chains while slaying any gaurds
who step
In to interefere with escape that is so clear
But he sees the Roman Sun and now he feels like the one son
Savior or a clean escape 41 for Juda's sake
Use the fire on the face of enemies so you can break
Maybe in the distance you see the right sail
Freedom is just living under Roman rules to avoid jail/death
Can you see the fires now 41
tell me your desires 41
Cannot promise their alive 41
But maybe if you race you can still be the Hur son
Can you taste the rain now 41?
Just like the day he gave you water in the sun
Remember as the blood drips 41?
And washes away all the pain that has been done
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Sometimes
I break
from the things that you forsake
Cant take
from me
everything that sets me free
You are
like them
twisted face not really a friend
your mark
the cross
Road will lead you to the lost
Imagine a day
if we could just save
instead we destroy everything in our way
I don't have the time
or the patience
i just have the money to buy all of this
I see myself, crawling through the mud and hell
Cant be yourself cause someone will send you to hell
Ain't really that I need your jaded company
I'm only glad when I feel like I may have a need
I hear pleads over the sound of my screams
I hear you need even though i don't have much to bleed
Cant seem to see when the fog has lifted from the sea
Can someone please tell me whose the victim of my needs
Tell me what do you see
A world falling to its knees
praying to live praying to die
praying while more lives are taken with time
Together holding hands
as nuclear bombs drop
skipping toward our destruction is how leaders plot
See how you forgot
the thousands that got got
bullets backed by shots
heaven is a plot covered up by dirt
where bodies all will rot
How can we save it
when we erased it
Cause we're too proud to renounce our amazement
Now they will raise it
and take a payment
leave the workforce struggling
while they choose tax evasion
How can I just be this way
Did I throw my heart away
Hard in a concrete space
Is where my soul rots away
Understand your grievance
so you pledge allegiance
Give your live away
to brothers who may
understand everything
ain't gone your way
The reflection blinds you from seeing the truth
Dedication to lies is how you will use
The way you recuse and simply refuse
to take responsibility and retribute
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Birthplace: Queens, NY
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